This is a post about nothing

I must confess. This post is being written partially out of guilt. I have been pondering off and on for days what to write, whether to include pictures, or whatever else. I could include pictures I suppose, but my digital camera has been sitting by my laptop for a few weeks now with lots of pictures from a recent trip to Brugge, Belgium to upload, and well, it just hasn't happened yet. I just haven't felt like it. Perhaps I will put this post in different colors to make it a bit more visually stimulating. Won't be as exciting as pictures but, oh well. It is not as though nothing has been happening, it is just that not all that is happening has been good, and writing it down here isn't going to help, plus anyone can read it. I am sorry to be so vague, but you can definitely be lifting me up. I have taken up running again which has been incredibly therapeutic. It just seems that as low as I have felt, when I push myself physically as far as I can, I get this incredible aliveness that nothing can quench- at least until the endorphins quit flowing. That is never to imply that I haven't felt God's presence in the midst of this. I have, but the process of giving over my wandering thoughts seemingly every minute has taken its toll on me. I feel tired all the time, and I at least want to do something to justify feeling this way. I do definitely think the benefits of exercise to the health of our mind and spirits is a great gift from our Creator.
I can't believe I go back to America in a few months. I can't really say that I go home in a few months, because Germany has become my home, and I am not really too excited to be leaving it. I feel like I have so much more to do here. That what I wanted to see happen is just starting to become a reality and now I have to leave. So wierd...not wanting to leave at all, but also getting increasingly excited about going home and seeing my family and friends. Not too mention eating Pollo Asado at Torero's, visiting Cafe Yumm, going to a movie theater without porn options, and getting to drive again. 1-5 watch out. Sigh. What can I say? I am conflicted. Well, I hope this conflicted one gets a grip soon and posts some pics soon. Brugge WAS pretty cool. By the way a random side note: for all those who have not read the Lord of the Rings series, did you know that that phrase "not all who wander are lost" is referring to Aragorn? Before I left Orygun I saw this phrase often- more than likely referring to someone who we would say in our P.C. ease is living an "alternative lifestyle." Well I say we take the saying back people! It's meaning has been a corrupted for too long! Okay well...that is all I have to say about that. Tschuss.